Group Project

The big even of yesterday was: The final projects pitching.

Almost everybody pitched. You had good projects, strange projects, fun projects, good things!

The one I pitched was about Role Playing Games. The idea is that I really enjoy pen and paper role playing games, but I also can’t play them most of the time. My friends are all around the world, and I don’t spend my time with my character sheets, dice, and/or books in my pocket.

So to counter that, I wanted to make an app that makes the link between players and game masters, and give you these commands that will give you all the infos you have in these books, all the character sheets, and the dice rolling, just by sending a mail with different commands.

In the end, I was not picked as one of the projects we would work on, but then among the 5 projects, 3 were projects that I really want to work on!

So in the end, I am in Armando’s team, and we are about to make a great app for diabetics to track their blood sugar stats and format them decently to transmit them to a doctor. I find it awesome and in a way, I am glad I was not picked!

More pressure

I put a lot of pressure on myself. Most of the time, I will not seem very stressed out, but inside, I may just be completely freaking out.

The idea is that I overthink everything. Being logical enough, I overthink without putting too much emotions and feeling in these thoughts. I see something, try to find all the outcomes (I will never succeed, but well…), try to think about the causes and consequences, study everybody’s point of view…

In the end, I like to think that it makes me calm and not stress out much on the outside.

Lately, the fact that I am coming to a situation that had a bad outcome the last time(the same situation I came to when I came back from korea), made me think about a lot of things, basically ways to prevent myself from falling in the same trap again. That just made me sleep less… which actually made me think more… And I fell into this strange loop that ended with me being exhausted, and giving too much credit to emotions and feelings.

Sleep depravation

The lack of sleep I am talking about is mainly due to a non restful sleep. A sleep where you keep on waking up, thinking about bad things, etc…

This lack of sleep makes you take bad paths, the wrong paths, basically. In the end, I am now sleep depraved, and even though I worked on that pressure, and talking about it was enough to relieve a lot of pain on that topic, sleeping 6h does not make you really rested, especially if you’ve been running on 5s for weeks…

But then, I am a logical person. I am also a person who does fall deep into these pressure cycles, but overcomes that. I did that before, a lot of time, and approaching things logically just ends up making me overcome whatever emotional challenge I have had so far.

So I work on my sleep, on my well being, and I am now much better than yesterday. Soon, I will be even better, and be sure that at the same time next week, our team will be kicking asses, and I will not be dragging them down!